Sad But Happy

Thursday 23rd November 2006

To the lovelies who cared,

I am heartened by the concern and I am lifted by the comfort. Thank you very much, really really. It's good to know people's hearts can be felt even so far out here, from so far away there. But be rest assured, the situation is not as serious as it sounds, the emotional outpouring you've read is grossly unjustified by the reality of the matter and the drama I've theatrically displayed here is just me...being me. Overdramatic because I was overemotional as I was just over-attached. Over sekali.

If you knew what I am talking about, which you would sooner or later, you'd wanna smack me right across the face and genye my fingers with cili padi for typing out such an emo entry not worth the actuality. I know, I know.....there are other things in life that are to be reckoned with that deserve such attention- people are finding the cure for AIDS, women are shaving their heads bald for Breast Cancer Week, couples are making babies by the minute to carry on their pusaka and nuclear weapons are secretly being made by people who can't pronounce certain letters of the alphabet. Bigger things are happening, bigger issues, bigger stories.

But hey, I'm not so big so forgive this little Lilliputian. I'm one tiny person and my tiny little problems are just as important to me as the next Hollywood-star-turned-state-senator is to the Americans. And whatever that was important to me, that went away, or rather, I had to give away, might not be much to anyone else but it was big noogins to me.

So if you think I sounded sad...yes, I was sad. Am still sad. But what's important to me now is that some other people do give a damn whether I sad or not even if you are my closet reader, my closest friend or my distanced cousin.

Thanks for the thoughts, even if you know or don't know or don't want to know what it was all about and maybe when you know, you think Raihan merepek menyerlah na'uzubillah.

May Allah bless you all, really. :)

*hugs*